sick of calculus II..

ohh god..hopefully you will give me a super power to do calculus very well..to be such brilliant person!i want to get an A for calculus..i want to prove to myself and to my family that i can do it!i used to be good in math!but y not calculus..i'm sick of feeling bad of calculus!i dunno what to do when i have no choice..i have to do whatever given by lecturer!i have to get an A..god..give me ur bless..give me ur mighty..give my ur brilliant..send me an angle to guide me to do calculus exercises.!avoid me from any setan that disturbing my mind to be lazy as what i used to be..can u please guide me to the right part and avoid any such disgusting thing that may embarrassing me!
i just waiting ur mighty god to give such a brilliant ideas and mind that can i apply in calculus..haha..

what is my mom promise?
change hp if u got A for calculus..it's damn cool rite?=)

where to ?

where to go when u have no destination?what is goal?what do u want?what do u need?what else?
who in ur mind?who are u?when do u want?which type do u like?

that is the question when we are talking about destination..uwaaahhh,,i have no regret to feel bad of myself..becoz for now..i'm doing bad thing that i havent done.when is the ending of this trashing action?i have to stop from doing such bad things as i don't want these activities annoyed me too much!yeah..for now,,,i noe that i'm not normal enuf and i'm not good as wat u expected from me..what dont i always remember my mom and my dad advises?who are they for me?they are the one who really concern about me...i did somehting wrong that i have to stop..i got the lesson and i havent think cafefully...what are the effects of all these things if i keeping doing bad?what shud i do to feel some regrets and guilty towards it?=(

i want to go to the states,,i have to get 4 flat for calculus II..and i have to score for other subject as well..

for this sem..i'll be taking calculusII ,chemistry,biology and islamic studies..chemistry?i have to get a good result as i used to be a good chemistry learner when i was in secondary school,,and biology..i have to get at least 3.0..ig good willing..and for calculus..i've to get at least a-..can i?
what is my cgpa if i get A- for cal II..A for chemist and B for biology..?
cgpa:
38x2.75=104.5
A for lab and islamic stuy.4x3=12
B for biology 3x4=12
A- for cal 3.66x5=18.3
B+ for pricnciple of chemistry 3.33x3=9.99
cgpa=2.96..uwaaaaaaahh~!!!nk graduate kat intec dngan 3 pointer and above!!!!please..

visit to rumah nur salam!='(

kids..you are so nice and cute!..that was a great charity visit to rumah nur salam bcoz it was my first ever charity visit..yes..i like kids so much..even my cousins pun like me too much..children .. you are beautiful and can influence the heart, you are naughty and cute .. but .. when reminded again .. why did you stay there? why your parent left you there? I would like to ask about your parents. . Where are they?what is your responsibilities??who are you??how could leaving your kids to other person to t8 care of them??that is your responsibility!u have to t8 care of them..that is totally different between parent loves and nanny loves~!i just imagined myself at ur place..=(
i can't!!that is hard ..where is my brother?my sister??my house??my bicycle??do i have to line up for the food when i was a child?yes..at kindergarten ..but not at home!your life has been controlled by the staff..heyy..you are kids!not a prisoner..u didnt do anything wrong..you are innocent!you don't know anything..??when is the ending of all suffering in ur life?where is ur relatives??why they didnt care about you??who will visit you ??uwaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa...please god..help them..give them a better future..they have to go to the school..gain some knowledge..they should !!!if not?who's gonna to t8 care of them when they become a teenager?
about they story..still xboleh lupa pasal akak..that girl yg baju purple..when i bring her close to the window..she keeps calling her mother...mama..mama..mama..and i asked her..where's mama??and she just simply point to the any women on the street. that's very heartbreaking..kakak makan bnyak2 ok..bljar rajin2..=(
and about a boy plak..,namenya imran..dia tanya,,kenapa abg dtg cni..then i answered..nk tgk adik la.then dia gtaw..nak duduk dgn abg...then i like xtahu nak ckp ape..it touched my heart.=(..
i can't say anything..and your name is like my cousin name..imran..but you both are very different..my cousin is very lucky bcoz his parents a contractor..anything that he wants..just tell to his mama..then he will get what he wished to get..easy right?uwaaaa..and b4 i leave imran..i told him to t8 care and makan banyak2 bia jadi gemok..=(
that was the best ever weekend that i have.beside of just doing bad..it's better for me to do sumthing good even it just once in my life..thanks god for this opportunity and for my childhood easy life with my parents!..
=(

satu minggu lagih!

the clock is still rotating..the time is going..going to the end..friends are leaving you ajeyy..they are going to the United states!!no more 11 guys in ur group..TEMAD,ZAIM,SAPEKK,PILUS,OMAR,HAZIM AYAM,AREPP LONDEH!..yg tinggal aku,mC,cawak and aiman messi..damn sad!!makin hari makin sayang,,that's our rule..luaran sumenyee nmpak kasar ..to dalamnyee ader taman!taman yg dihiasi dengan bungaan2 mawar...sapek and abgnyee..zaim and adikknyee,temad and syazzie nyee..hazim dgn panjangnyee ..cawak pon dengan infinity nyeee...mc punya crite...pintu hatinyee diketuk oleh dua wanita..yg punya ciri selama ini mc cari...hahah..guesss who?..then aku ddengan c++ nyeee..kegilaaan semakin menjadi2..kesakitan otak aku !!!..adoi..nak ungkit2 crite spnjang stahun kat intec mmg agak2 panjang!!!daripada aku xtahu ape2,,sehingga aku ++nbyak perkara!!!iwaaaaa..

crazy futsal!

futsal2..skrang kau lah tempat aku nak lepaskan geram..ngeeeee....aku sepak bola..aku rase happy...aku sepak orang ..lagi la aku happy...dari kecik dah mmg kaki main,,how to do .. I was kind of like to play..mmg la..adoi..bola ke..hoki ke..futsal ke..olahraga ke..sumenyee aku minat...uwaaaaa....klu teringat balik zaman2 main nie..agak la terharu..tgk org disarungkan medal pom ader rase nak ngangis..that;s the truth..mmg xlehh tpu..sbb xtahu nak explain macm maner happy nyee klu dpt sesuatu yg hasil daripada kita..*satisfied*...dulu ..nak pegi sekolah sukan bukit jalil..tp terbantut..sbb dapat 5A in my upsr..klu x..mmg dah jadi sportsman la aku kan..tp xpe..ade hikmah disebalik nyee..whatever,,main just untuk happy and kepuasan!uwaaaaahhhh..tp i like to be cheered !xleh belahh,..buject superstar!haha

09/06/..not much!

today quiz was very bad!got 25marks..contained 4 qustion..that's hard!!!!!!!uwaaaaaa..i can't answer it...it's very hard.. question no 3 damn blurr..dunno what to write..terrible..scary...mcm2 dah jadi..adoii..redha jea la..function pom xtahu jgk..c++ also got function ma...this function is not easy as calculus function ma..then..went to eat at paksu corner ma..6.50 ma...dah biase la 2..air boleh refiil ma
..then petang futsall..aku xderr mood sangat nak main ma..sakit hati..sakit ulser..mcam2..

fourth of june ..

friday morning it is a very good day..the day for muslim to improve themselves to be a good muslim..that sound good rite?hhoho..but the truth is..i was sleeping on the bed while my handphone alarm ringing and ringing..uwaaahh..damn nice to have this beauty sleep..moreover, last nite i slept at 4 o'clock...although the time is already 10 oclock...what did i do??to be frank..i do nothing...wasting my time..i cannot sleep..thinking about sumthing....i dont know why i always think about that..although i dont want to think about it..haha..that sunthing is secret 0ok..then at 2 o'clock.i driving back to my hometown>>kelantan terindah darul naim...that was a long journey ..it's 7 hours from shah alam..moreover..by using my old fashioned car...=|..too sloooww maa..

after 7 hours ...I'm arrived home..hehe..i miss my family a lot..they are so meaningful to me..hehe...my grandmother also at my home..hehe..she likes to make joke..when entering to my house.she pretending to die..uwaaa..she covered herself with blanket,..haha..so funny..but scary..

then at night..i went to minum teh tarik at bandar machang..it just 3minutes from my home..that was cool..because i like to hang around ..furthermore...it's 2 o'clock..huhu.but..while having my teh tarik..my brother got a shock when i was fainted !uwaaa..at first..i can feel the world become darker and darker..then i was like to lay on the table,,but it;s plastic table and teh tarik also on that table..i can't wait..my head dizzying a got spinning..i can stand on my feet..then ..i felt on the ground,,,haha..that was funny..but do u think it's serious..uwaaa..i have been suffered with this symptom since last 4 years..it's low blood pressure !and also hypo tension..the same disease with my father..haha..i got some scratches on my head and legs,.sakit urat!adoii..

now i'm recovering myself to be ok as soon as possible..i went to gymnasium and jog a lil bit and also playing badminton..just to balanced up my blood circulatory system!