holidays!

holiday??-----
1.bowling...
2.pizza hut..
3.futsal..
4.online..
5.poker..
6.music..
7.lepak2!
8.main hujan!
one more week for toefl result..huwa2~!

Pak Long Selagi Ada Rindu

uwhhh..aje!ajam!kuat2!lek3!cool3!happy!huhuhu..
tq myself!

You did a right decision!

life is something can be as hard as it can..and sometime can be easy as what u want.!but..when it comes to something that you have to accept that is actually maybe the beginning of the happiness!you are right when u leave me in this way!and i think you are right to treat me like this!yes!it was my fault because i never realize what i had done to you!even it is a while..but it is hard!u r suffering with this pain!then is u leave me in this way!u r right because i can know how hards to accept something that is totally hard to be accepted~!what's to do!when it comes to lOVE..u such in freaking lies~!u and me..!almost everything what we had done is useless!u didnt even feel what is love for me!u even know how i love u!and then...u never see what is love !yeahh!love is actually romantic ,supporting,encouraging and motivating!but had we done all of these rules!?yes we didn't!and now,,it's over between you and me!i wish u luck in all ur doings!AND one thing that i've to tell u that.!i really appreciate you!and this is what u had chose to be ...and yes!u r being single for ur life!go seeks forgiveness from HIm.!pray a lot!and one thing!if u had found someone that really can be replaced with me!and he's really love u..and he didn't bring you the the wrong track!do tell me!i got to know..and maybe it's the time when i have to accept the most sad moment in my life and that time!please be disappeared from me becasue i can't effort to see you!!!gudbye love!
my god bless you!i'll try my best to give what u want to!but i don't know what i can do to make u hate me as what u wish to!i'm sorry!

prolonged frustration

uwahhh..why ?i got no reason to tell why ..but for sure ..it's killing me ..please be sincere what do u want from me??anything that i can change??anything that u can confess with..anything that can make u happy .?anything that is not hurt u??but..u've to know..i've been trying and it's hard to get into it.=(

b or repeat!

i have to ch0ose either one...b or repeat..i think i'm g0nna to repeat..it's imp0rtant to raise up my cgpa!huhu

='(

i feel like crying...i d0nt kn0w what was happening..oh g0d..help me..i want to cry..life is so c0mplicated..help me..give me back what i used to get..i need it g0d..help me..

one republic-

I need another story
Something to get off my chest
My life gets kinda boring
Need something that I can confess

'Til all my sleeves are stained red
From all the truth that I've said
Come by it honestly I swear
Thought you saw me wink, no
I've been on the brink, so

Tell me what you want to hear
Something that were like those years
I'm sick of all the insincere
So I'm gonna give all my secrets away

This time, don't need another perfect lie
Don't care if critics never jump in line
I'm gonna give all my secrets away

My God, amazing how we got this far
It's like we're chasing all those stars
Who's driving shiny big black cars
And everyday I see the news
All the problems that we could solve

And when a situation rises
Just write it into an album
Singing straight, too cold
I don't really like my flow, no, so

Tell me what you want to hear
Something that were like those years
I'm sick of all the insincere
So I'm gonna give all my secrets away

This time, don't need another perfect lie
Don't care if critics never jump in line
I'm gonna give all my secrets away

Oh, got no reason, got not shame
Got no family I can blame
Just don't let me disappear
I'ma tell you everything

Tell me what you want to hear
Something that were like those years
I'm sick of all the insincere
So I'm gonna give all my secrets away

This time, don't need another perfect lie
Don't care if critics never jump in line
I'm gonna give all my secrets away

So Tell me what you want to hear
Something that were like those years
I'm sick of all the insincere
So I'm gonna give all my secrets away

This time, don't need another perfect lie
Don't care if critics never jump in line
I'm gonna give all my secrets away
All my secrets away, all my secrets away

final punye st0ry

final exam n final b0la sepak?

it's november evelvent!

it's 11 months!it's my first first time to have a gf till it exceeded 11 months!

this tonite,,

what am i doing at 2.15 am..am i online-ing on facebook??palying computer games??what else??...uwahhhhh..i did amaze of myself when i flashing back about the last sem..enjoy..movie..futsal..game..chat..lepak..sleep..whatver nonsense...uwahhhh..this new sem..it's really gonna to be a record!a world record..haha..i just knew life in intec..what is study ..and how to dic=vide ur time well..first test reminds me about the time..i have no time to play around bcoz time is goingto an end!the end when it decided where's my next station..UNITED STATES..or just staying in MALAYSIA..which one are u prefer first aje??if u didnt go to the states it means that u r a great losel..LOSER...LOSER...uwahhh..can't accept that thing in my mind!shud be avoided from talikng about such terrible thing people..!think positive!we can do it!the GOD had determined ur place!but..ohhh god,,,,i'm begging to you!i wanna go to the states!achieve my dreams!for sure!a biotechnologist.!i just wanna go there!take as much knowledge as i can!and do something good for my country and religion for my dad!for my mom!family!! and finally.pray for our happiness ..may god bless us!besides that!my love!she's mine!i love her so much!=0

nayo's weekend

this weekend ..shud be one of the great weeknd as i completed all the tasks below.!~haha
1.date with wan nor syamimi-always laughing2!make me worried!
2.meet up with nayo-unstable body position!
3.celebrate amal's besday-not enough food !
4.meet up with my dad.-coool ,new shoes,new beg and nasi kandar for sure!
5.futsal inpro-third place,i didnt score for penalty shot! .

scrap;tomorrow quiz!

hopefully the first quiz will be sumthing good..as sum people sayin that ...starting with the good result and ending with a better result!so what..tomorrow might be the first quiz~!still hoping for the god's mighty to get a good result..dunno..this sem..i have been so serius for my calculus class as i have target!i want to get an A....it's not easy to get it..but..it's not possible as well..so it's possible..but..i dun think that i have enuf exercises so far..and this is just the first few days of the class...what's next ?hopefully it's not hard as common rumors that calculusII is very2 hard to score..yea..it's is..but at least ...i want and A-..i want it ..can anyone please give me an A?

ok3!have to sleep earlier so that i have enuf energy to apply all knowledge that i had have in the exam tomorrow morning!=)

2.44 a.m

talking about the time..2.44a.m...it's the time to sleep..my roomates having millions of dreams at 2.44a.m..but ..it's different for me bcoz at 2.44a.m..i just finished my calculus exercises..uwaaaaaaaaaaaa...i'm sick of calclulus ..desperate to get an A..ohh god..help me again to make it real..i wanna i wanna i wanna to get an A ..please..please..please..i'm begging to you god..give me an A for calculus..i want to prove to my mom..to my dad!i was insulted by my dad words when he said ..alaaa...blajar pon xlepas pointer nak kereta baru..uwaaaaa...heyyy dad..cool la..uwaaaaaaaaaa..that's totally not a good advise..he always telling that words ..y dunt he applies other motivation method to advise me instead of using harsh words....i guess..harsh rite??hahaha..but it's ok bcoz of that sentence..i have been inspired to do better in my studies!who knows i'll get an A for calclulus bcoz of that sentence..haha..dad..2.44a.m will be witnesses to my victory soon..will see ya..i'm in full of spirit for calclus..make its consistence and steady...what we call as..istiqamah rite??huhuh..

ok..bye2..2.44a.m..2.54 a.m calling me to sleep!hua3..

sick of calculus II..

ohh god..hopefully you will give me a super power to do calculus very well..to be such brilliant person!i want to get an A for calculus..i want to prove to myself and to my family that i can do it!i used to be good in math!but y not calculus..i'm sick of feeling bad of calculus!i dunno what to do when i have no choice..i have to do whatever given by lecturer!i have to get an A..god..give me ur bless..give me ur mighty..give my ur brilliant..send me an angle to guide me to do calculus exercises.!avoid me from any setan that disturbing my mind to be lazy as what i used to be..can u please guide me to the right part and avoid any such disgusting thing that may embarrassing me!
i just waiting ur mighty god to give such a brilliant ideas and mind that can i apply in calculus..haha..

what is my mom promise?
change hp if u got A for calculus..it's damn cool rite?=)

where to ?

where to go when u have no destination?what is goal?what do u want?what do u need?what else?
who in ur mind?who are u?when do u want?which type do u like?

that is the question when we are talking about destination..uwaaahhh,,i have no regret to feel bad of myself..becoz for now..i'm doing bad thing that i havent done.when is the ending of this trashing action?i have to stop from doing such bad things as i don't want these activities annoyed me too much!yeah..for now,,,i noe that i'm not normal enuf and i'm not good as wat u expected from me..what dont i always remember my mom and my dad advises?who are they for me?they are the one who really concern about me...i did somehting wrong that i have to stop..i got the lesson and i havent think cafefully...what are the effects of all these things if i keeping doing bad?what shud i do to feel some regrets and guilty towards it?=(

i want to go to the states,,i have to get 4 flat for calculus II..and i have to score for other subject as well..

for this sem..i'll be taking calculusII ,chemistry,biology and islamic studies..chemistry?i have to get a good result as i used to be a good chemistry learner when i was in secondary school,,and biology..i have to get at least 3.0..ig good willing..and for calculus..i've to get at least a-..can i?
what is my cgpa if i get A- for cal II..A for chemist and B for biology..?
cgpa:
38x2.75=104.5
A for lab and islamic stuy.4x3=12
B for biology 3x4=12
A- for cal 3.66x5=18.3
B+ for pricnciple of chemistry 3.33x3=9.99
cgpa=2.96..uwaaaaaaahh~!!!nk graduate kat intec dngan 3 pointer and above!!!!please..

visit to rumah nur salam!='(

kids..you are so nice and cute!..that was a great charity visit to rumah nur salam bcoz it was my first ever charity visit..yes..i like kids so much..even my cousins pun like me too much..children .. you are beautiful and can influence the heart, you are naughty and cute .. but .. when reminded again .. why did you stay there? why your parent left you there? I would like to ask about your parents. . Where are they?what is your responsibilities??who are you??how could leaving your kids to other person to t8 care of them??that is your responsibility!u have to t8 care of them..that is totally different between parent loves and nanny loves~!i just imagined myself at ur place..=(
i can't!!that is hard ..where is my brother?my sister??my house??my bicycle??do i have to line up for the food when i was a child?yes..at kindergarten ..but not at home!your life has been controlled by the staff..heyy..you are kids!not a prisoner..u didnt do anything wrong..you are innocent!you don't know anything..??when is the ending of all suffering in ur life?where is ur relatives??why they didnt care about you??who will visit you ??uwaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa...please god..help them..give them a better future..they have to go to the school..gain some knowledge..they should !!!if not?who's gonna to t8 care of them when they become a teenager?
about they story..still xboleh lupa pasal akak..that girl yg baju purple..when i bring her close to the window..she keeps calling her mother...mama..mama..mama..and i asked her..where's mama??and she just simply point to the any women on the street. that's very heartbreaking..kakak makan bnyak2 ok..bljar rajin2..=(
and about a boy plak..,namenya imran..dia tanya,,kenapa abg dtg cni..then i answered..nk tgk adik la.then dia gtaw..nak duduk dgn abg...then i like xtahu nak ckp ape..it touched my heart.=(..
i can't say anything..and your name is like my cousin name..imran..but you both are very different..my cousin is very lucky bcoz his parents a contractor..anything that he wants..just tell to his mama..then he will get what he wished to get..easy right?uwaaaa..and b4 i leave imran..i told him to t8 care and makan banyak2 bia jadi gemok..=(
that was the best ever weekend that i have.beside of just doing bad..it's better for me to do sumthing good even it just once in my life..thanks god for this opportunity and for my childhood easy life with my parents!..
=(

satu minggu lagih!

the clock is still rotating..the time is going..going to the end..friends are leaving you ajeyy..they are going to the United states!!no more 11 guys in ur group..TEMAD,ZAIM,SAPEKK,PILUS,OMAR,HAZIM AYAM,AREPP LONDEH!..yg tinggal aku,mC,cawak and aiman messi..damn sad!!makin hari makin sayang,,that's our rule..luaran sumenyee nmpak kasar ..to dalamnyee ader taman!taman yg dihiasi dengan bungaan2 mawar...sapek and abgnyee..zaim and adikknyee,temad and syazzie nyee..hazim dgn panjangnyee ..cawak pon dengan infinity nyeee...mc punya crite...pintu hatinyee diketuk oleh dua wanita..yg punya ciri selama ini mc cari...hahah..guesss who?..then aku ddengan c++ nyeee..kegilaaan semakin menjadi2..kesakitan otak aku !!!..adoi..nak ungkit2 crite spnjang stahun kat intec mmg agak2 panjang!!!daripada aku xtahu ape2,,sehingga aku ++nbyak perkara!!!iwaaaaa..

crazy futsal!

futsal2..skrang kau lah tempat aku nak lepaskan geram..ngeeeee....aku sepak bola..aku rase happy...aku sepak orang ..lagi la aku happy...dari kecik dah mmg kaki main,,how to do .. I was kind of like to play..mmg la..adoi..bola ke..hoki ke..futsal ke..olahraga ke..sumenyee aku minat...uwaaaaa....klu teringat balik zaman2 main nie..agak la terharu..tgk org disarungkan medal pom ader rase nak ngangis..that;s the truth..mmg xlehh tpu..sbb xtahu nak explain macm maner happy nyee klu dpt sesuatu yg hasil daripada kita..*satisfied*...dulu ..nak pegi sekolah sukan bukit jalil..tp terbantut..sbb dapat 5A in my upsr..klu x..mmg dah jadi sportsman la aku kan..tp xpe..ade hikmah disebalik nyee..whatever,,main just untuk happy and kepuasan!uwaaaaahhhh..tp i like to be cheered !xleh belahh,..buject superstar!haha

09/06/..not much!

today quiz was very bad!got 25marks..contained 4 qustion..that's hard!!!!!!!uwaaaaaa..i can't answer it...it's very hard.. question no 3 damn blurr..dunno what to write..terrible..scary...mcm2 dah jadi..adoii..redha jea la..function pom xtahu jgk..c++ also got function ma...this function is not easy as calculus function ma..then..went to eat at paksu corner ma..6.50 ma...dah biase la 2..air boleh refiil ma
..then petang futsall..aku xderr mood sangat nak main ma..sakit hati..sakit ulser..mcam2..